I’ve been writing my emotions away since I was in high school. I’ve also been using social media sites for almost as long. I’ve written about a lot of things on my blog, my social media accounts, and other places. I even wrote about those things I don’t fully understand.
All I can say is, “ah, youth.” I was young and filled with rage. I never thought I’m a brilliant person, but I did believe that I’m way smarter than a lot of people. I can tell you with complete confidence that at the time I wrote those things, I sincerely believed that whatever my points of view were, they were probably the on the smart side.
Now that I’m in my 30s, I now understand that the world is bigger than I thought, and there are far more brilliant people around the world than me. I learned a lot from the people I met over the years. As I was learning, I realized there are way better ways to deal with things, there are better ways to view the situation, and there are better ideas around as long as you have an open mind.
Whenever my brain reminds me of some of those old points of view that I held, I usually feel a deep sense of shame and regret. I know things could’ve been better, and these thoughts make me feel stupid and useless. Although that’s a constant for people who never forget all the gaffes that they ever did.
So I thought, instead of just letting these feelings linger, what if I create a new section on my blog focused on revisiting these points of view, ideas, and statements of mine to see if they were really that stupid? Not only would it help me process the negativity in a productive manner. It also would either give me the satisfaction of proving that I made a good point, or it will instead give me a better perspective and lead me to a better mindset. Think of it as my version of Am I The Asshole? on Reddit, except I’m going to evaluate my younger self.
There are lots of things to talk about. But I would like to first address a very old social media post of mine with regard to modernizing public transport in the Philippines. Life’s so busy these days but I’ll do my best to post it as soon as I can.
As always, I hope my experiences would benefit the young ones not only in their careers but also in their personal lives. I hope they never make the same mistakes that I did. I’ll do my best to be as transparent as I can, and I’ll do my best not to justify my actions. Wish me luck in this new endeavor.
Bien is a software engineer for more than 10 years, focusing on Microsoft .NET technology. He developed solutions ranging from embedded systems to accounting systems. He spends his free time trying to understand the world and its people.